Never ending movement.

I was thinking of whether should I re-activate my facebook today or later when I am really free.

The only reason now on why I would reactivate my facebook is because of photo albums and the people I need to tag who has been asking for it.

I have already finsihed my exams, only boxes andother people to handle.

I have so much stories to tell, but personal.

So what is the use of my blog anyway?

Talking in code does no work for me.

Back to London tomorrow until fly off end of the week,more packing for me to do right now.

Although now I am superbly tired ,legs aching and food poisoning from last night.

Take care :).

Will call people as soon as I get my removals and shipping done :)

Bigbig locolove,

Qaqa

It is all good.

I know I have not been blogging in a while but I have 2 shitty exams this week.

Hopefully God would guide me through all this.

I am also going to be absent for a while.

Time to change myself.

At times we always blame or talk about other people.

That we dont realise about ourselves.

I have changed alot.

I realised so many things around me.

Friendship, relationship, exams, and how to handle every single thing in life.

I don't talk about my problems as I know I have to solve it myself.

I don't like people talking about my problems because no matter what you know the other person would talk about it to someone else.

Unless you really trust someone and I only have my family and just a few people in my life that I do.

I used to trust so many people last time but not now.

Somehow I think I grew hopefully for the btter.

I just need a focus which I already had and still is my focus.

I just need to be stronger in coping my own life.

I hate being dependant.

I hate being stupidly crying all the time for nonsense.

Well, I'll quit rambling.

Time to study again.

Take care everyone.

Remember don't lose yourself out there.

Btw : Omg Greg Pritchard sucked in the Semi Final-chose the wrong song! But I still adore his voice! I love Shaheen voice in the Finals! My Top 5:

1. Shaheen Jafargholi

2. Diversity

3. Flawless

4. Susan Boyle (overrated really but very good and I know she would win anyway)

5. Shaun Smith & Stavros Flatly (they make me laugh and I x choose)

Bigbig hug,

Qa

There is never a happy ending in non-fiction.

What if  you are deeply worried and didn't know what to say?

What if  it  just ends up as a disappointment?

I just don't know anymore.

Some things are meant to keep in your heart, to not let other people worried.

Some times you do it for both sake.

But in the end, you yourself feel lost.

Why can' t people leave us alone?

Although I know they deeply care.

It's frustrating to see both sides worried and sad.

It saddens me that know one knows what's going on.

Decisions are no longer ours to hold, but theirs.

If it would make life much simpler, then just let go for their  happiness.

But I can't let go, for the things we have been together.

Its not easy as it seems or said.

Put yourself in my position, even if you don't know whats going on.

I am justa girl turning 20.

I might not know nuts abouts the world just yet.

But I do know, I will be strong for whatever is going to happen in future.

The updated scene of this play is not going on well.

I knew this was going to happen but I never knew that both sides are going to be heart broken.

Believe me, this is not what I imagined how my summer is going to start.

Without my other side.

But who am I?

I am just a person, with one tiny voice, unheard, just deeply mourning in sorrows.

But if I don't show my happy face, the  other person going to stay.

I don't want that to happen either.

Never do something half-heartedly.

I really love you.

2 years seems like a blink in the eye.

But the bloody shits we go through is like living in hell.

But we will be ok.

I know we will.

Just have to hang on tight.

As I love you.

And you love me.

The Mac Book Wheel

Somehow it looks harder then having a keyboard.

I think keyboard works better then a bloody wheel.

Its like turning time again.

When telephone had that wheel to dial numbers;very slow.

This I guess is just for Mac lovers, but I do love the hummingbird battery product.

Wish my computer had that?

I just wish my computer just stop having discolouration from time to time.

Another exam just pass, I have another one this Saturday and that's one of the toughest subject I had to cope with this year.

You know what I hate?

When I am still on my second booklet during examinations and people already asking for their fourth booklet.

Chill MAN.

It's not a contest!

What the hell are they writing anyway?

I feel so insecure as I will be thinking " WTF is he writing???Drawing doraemons or what??OMG i need more vocabulary, omg I am so going to fail".

And that was what I thought 3 hours ago.

Oh well, it's in the past.

I would just have to die for the next one.

Wish me luck!

Btw, good luck to everyone who has exams!!!

p.s: Ryfa! I hope you're ok!! Sorry can't call you for now! Will very soon!

Bigbig hug,

Qaqa